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Some of you may not understand this post.  Some, like me, are starting to get the idea.  What I really like about the Arcturian message is its purity.  There is no sense of ego or agenda.  There are no put-downs of other messengers.  Their intention is to serve, nothing else.  While they do make a mention of current events, it's a passing mention because their focus is on what really matters... ascension.  The explanations are clear.  They don't say "everyone must ascend" and then leave you to figure it out.  They tell you how to accomplish it.  It is always a choice, as they respect the free will of sovereign beings, which we all are. They are a gentle race.  If these messages were not from a race such as these, you would be able to sense any "ungentleness" or conflicting message.

After I first posted some Arcturian messages a few weeks ago, several people posted derogatory remarks here and there across the forums.  They are no longer here (for other reasons); however, derogatory remarks will not be tolerated.  If ascension or learning about other galactic races is not within your reality or desire, that is totally okay.  You are welcome to learn along with the rest of us, or not.  This is your choice and no one will force you to learn or fault you if you choose to pass on the opportunity.  But do not criticize that which you do not understand. 

A word of explanation... what I am understanding about SELF and multi-dimensionality is that our reality here on third dimension Earth is only one slice of the pie.  Earth has been said by many different races to be a schoolhouse.  We learn by experience.  And we don't learn one lifetime at a time, but by many lifetimes and many different realities at a time.  SELF is akin to the central processing unit of a computer.  I'm not sure if OVERSOUL is the same concept as SELF, but SELF is YOU, the main component.  The different lives/realities that you live are part of your network, if you can imagine each life/reality as an organic (computer) server that feeds information into your mainframe (SELF).  It's a quantum physics thing and our scientists just have a bare grasp of it.  This is my understanding at this point and subject to change as I continue to learn.  I'd like to hear your realities on what these concepts mean, if you have some and would like to share.


RELEASING THE HABIT OF BEING THIRD DIMENSIONAL

 

Dear Ones,


We, the Arcturian expression of our many grounded ones, wish to assist you in releasing the habit of being third dimensional. This habit, like all habits, is a set of behaviors that originate in your unconscious mind. Therefore, you are not consciously aware of these habitual actions, thoughts and emotions. Hence, you do not know the reason for these habits. To change a habit you must bring up from your unconscious mind and into your conscious awareness. Once you can consciously observe your habit, you can begin to change it.

 

At first, you may not be aware that certain habitual actions and thoughts make you feel unhappy. However, if you continue to observe when you feel unhappy, you can begin to trace that feeling back to its source. For example, you may not know why you are feeling anxious for quite awhile, but you keep observing yourself. Then once day, you realize that a certain thought, that used to be unconscious and is now conscious, always makes you feel anxious.

 

Therefore, you can begin to change that thought by trying to "catch yourself in the act." 

  • At first it may take several days for you to realize that you are feeling anxious, because you have allowed yourself to think in a certain way.
  • Then, with continued observation, you realize you are anxious because you just had that thought.
  • Then, you have the "last time" experience, in which you can catch yourself in the NOW of having that thought. But, you cannot change it! This is very important, for you can clearly observe how the type of thinking makes you feel anxious.
  • After you catch your self in the act, you can stop the thought just before you have it and transmute it into a higher frequency thought.
  • Eventually, you will heal yourself of thinking in that fashion and suffer much less anxiety.

The best way to catch yourself in the habit of being third dimensional is to be conscious of your third dimensional thinking. Third dimensional thinking is based on time, space, separation, limitation, gender and illusion. This type of thinking brings about many fearful emotions because you are constantly on the clock of what you have to do, how far you have to go to do it, other people that you have to deal with, all the limitations that you must surmount, social gender issues, and myriad illusions. Third dimensional thinking lowers your consciousness and dis-allows you to perceive the amazing reality that is just beyond your limited perceptions.

 

Bringing the source of your third dimensional thinking out of your unconscious and into your conscious awareness is the same process as releasing habits. Eventually, you must "catch yourself in the act," so that you can transmute your third dimensional thinking into its higher expression of multidimensional thinking. It is through conscious recognition of the emotions that arise from third dimensional thinking that you can begin your process of releasing that type of thinking.

 

Third dimensional thinking is largely fear-based, and many fear-based emotions arise from the myriad limitations, loss of personal power and loneliness that arise from it. At first, you may not realize that you are thinking in a time-bound, third dimensional way. However, you are very aware that you are feeling nervous, anxious, depressed, angry or sad. Instead of asking yourself what outside event initiated these feelings, you ask yourself what thought initiated this feeling. In other words, instead of looking into the illusions of your third dimensional world to find the source of your emotions, you look inside to your own manner of thinking.

 

If you take a moment to connect with your higher expression of SELF, you can use your super-conscious perspective to quickly identify that third dimensional thinking has created your uncomfortable emotions. At first, you may wait until your emotional reactions to your thoughts are quite extreme. Fortunately, with practice, you will learn to more immediately identify that the source of your discomfort is your own third dimensional thinking and NOT an outside source.


In this way you can realize that most of your emotions arise not from your physical life, but from the way you think about your life. With this realization, you can begin to catch yourself in the act of thinking in a limited, fearful, separate and/or time-bound manner. This is when you can begin to release your habit of third dimensional thinking, and begin to allow yourself to remember your innate multidimensional thinking. Multidimensional thinking arises not from your third dimensional unconscious brain but from your super-conscious multidimensional mind.

 

Whereas your third dimensional thinking has been trained to use only 3% of your DNA and about 5% of your brain, multidimensional thinking arises from the 97% of DNA that was formerly turned-off. As the higher light from the Galactic Center enters your Pineal Gland and is integrated into your physical brain, the 97% DNA is turned-on and your "whole brain thinking" is activated. With whole brain thinking, the 95% of brain activity comes online to originate your Multidimensional Operating System, which is based on multidimensional thinking.

 

Whereas third dimensional thinking is based on the illusion of time, multidimensional thinking is based on the NOW of the ONE. With continued experiences of the NOW, you lose time. And, with no time, there is no space. Therefore, there is no separation. At this point you begin to have "NOW experiences," in which you are ONE with your Multidimensional SELF. In these moments of Unity with the ONE you can perceive and experience higher dimensions of reality.

 

Within these experiences of being your Multidimensional SELF you begin to understand how YOU have created and chosen to participate in every aspect of your life. As you gradually return to the habit of being multidimensional, you remember how to transmute your habit of being third dimensional into the Truth of being your true SELF. Transmutation is your innate ability to change any experience through raising its resonance into a higher frequency of reality. Raising the resonance of your reality is ascension. As you ascend with your beloved Gaia, you will choose to perceive and participate in progressively higher frequencies of your ascending reality.

 

Transmuting your reality as it is happening is a rehearsal to remind yourself that you do NOT want to participate in reality in that fashion-or that you do not want to participate in that reality at all. With each rehearsal you identify the reality that you don't wish to participate in and/or the behavior that you no longer wish to exercise. Each time you catch yourself in the act of behaving a certain way or participating in an unwanted reality, you have an opportunity to look inside yourself as and say, "I AM the creator of my reality. Why did I create and/or participate in that reality?"

 

There may be different reasons at different times, but if you observe that you acted, or are acting, in an unconscious, habitual manner say: "I AM the creator of my reality and All patterns of resonance are created by my consciousness. My reality, the reality that I AM creating, begins with a thought form, which I created by the thoughts and emotions that I am consciously, or unconsciously, allowing to fill my heart and mind." This sentence is the key to being able to remain on New Earth.

 

New Earth is not a place; it is a frequency. It is not your responsibility to experience it; it is your choice. You can only perceive and experience New Earth when you are resonating to a fifth dimension and beyond state of consciousness. These higher states of consciousness are what open your Inner Portal to New Earth. However, whenever your consciousness drops below the fifth dimension, you will no longer resonate to that frequency of reality. Therefore, you will no longer be able to perceive the reality that is always there.

 

For example, insects perceive and experience the ultraviolet reality. This reality is always around you, and you can easily see the third dimensional insect bodies that are seeing and living in that reality. However, your consciousness and, hence, your perceptions, do not resonate to the ultraviolet frequency of the physical light spectrum. Therefore, you can see the insects, but you can't see reality as they see it.

 

At first, ascension will be similar to the insect vision, in that you can perceive New Earth, and others can see your physical body, but they will not be able to see the reality you are seeing until their consciousness resonates to the same frequency. This example is similar to a clairvoyant who can see beings from higher dimensions or a clairaudient who can hear higher dimensional voices. Those whose consciousness is still only third dimensional can see these people, and may ask them to share the reality of their experiences, but they cannot experience that reality themselves. Fortunately, as your consciousness expands, so do your perceptions.

 

THE CYCLE IS COMPLETING

 

Dear Ascending Expression of Our SELF,


You, our Ascending Ones, are experiencing not just what is happening with you, but what is happening throughout the entire planet. Hence, many of you are feeling many symptoms of transformation, which likely feel like an illness. The reality is that you feel sick and tired within your earth vessel for it has grown too small for you. The habit of being third dimensional is creating a final battle between the realities of the YOU that you thought you should be and the YOU that you have always been. Many of our ascending ones feel this way, but each of you is moving through this process in your own personal manner.

 

You see the third dimension is coming to its completion. The Illusions that have held that matrix in place are buckling under the weight of the ever expanding unveiling of Truth. This Truth is that you DO have control over your reality and that YOU, the Ascending Ones, have called in enough Light that we, the Galactics, can intervene. We of the Galactic Federation can now directly interface with the Core of Darkness, which has taken on the false name of "the Illuminati." It is the old story of the "wolf in sheep's clothing." We can also deal directly with these dark ones because they are the decedents of our first genetic seeding of Earth.

 

The "Service to Self" Draconians were among the first explorers to inhabit your planet. Their species reproduces by laying eggs. Once the eggs are hatched, it is the survival of the fittest as to who survives and who does not. Therefore, from birth on it is each Drac for him or herself. Love is not a driving force in their society. In fact, it is practically unknown. Therefore, they have no sense of guilt if they harm others because that behavior is the foundation of their reality. For many millennia the Drac ruled our Galaxy with an iron fist and might ruled over right. In fact, for them might WAS right, and weakness in any fashion was intolerable.

 

Fortunately, many Draconians have moved beyond that worldview, and some have even ascended. However, those who have reincarnated again and again on Earth have not evolved at all. They now hide within their earth vessels and look quite human. However, inside they hold the consciousness and genetic memory of being a Draconian. It is these ones that were responsible for the fall of Lemuria and Atlantis, and were fully prepared to create a similar scenario for your present time period. However, because we were able to remove the extra-terrestrial Draconians from all contact with Earth, the grounded ones in human form have lost their inter-galactic support.

 

Meanwhile, the ascended Draconians within our Galactic Federation are extremely intelligent and scientific, as well as advanced alchemists with a wonderful sense of humor. We tell you this so that you do not develop a prejudice against all Dracs. Indeed, humans have a great deal of Draconian DNA. Furthermore, the ascended Dracs are working diligently to assist their grounded expressions in the Illuminati to embrace the light as they have. They are also telling them that their days are numbered, and it is best that they participate in this opportunity to awaken rather than fall into the depths of the dark energy that they have created within and around them.

 

They are reminding their grounded ones that, already, many bankers are "retiring," which will cut the Illuminati's NWO off from many of their financial resources. Then, the politician who they have bought off will be relieved of their office. With the corrupted politicians gone, the NWO will lose their power over the masses because old rules of domination will be replaced with laws that assist the people rather than the hidden rulers. The ascended Dracs are called upon to communicate with their descendants because these dark ones are more inclined to listen to their ancestors than to those they have always perceived as enemies. If only a few dark ones can look towards the light, it will greatly affect that collective consciousness.

 

You must realize that it is not the Galactics' intention to punish, as that is a third dimensional concept. We do not perceive darkness and fear to be "bad." In fact, it was vital to have this darkness to create a polarized reality. However, the innocence of the light ones who had never known the dark could not imagine the power of that which was hidden. Love and light lives in the open to be shared with all. Hence, the original innocent ones could not imagine the degree of darkness that lay hidden in their world like a snake in its hole.

 

On the other hand, it was the very darkness that threatened to destroy them that forced them to awaken to their full wisdom and power. The darkness also forced them, that is you-the ascending ones, to gain the wisdom to know the full power of love. Love, free of all the conditions of fear, is the highest frequency of light and the core of your greatest power. Therefore, we ask you not to be angry or vengeful towards those that you are ascending beyond. Allow the Law of Return to teach them the lesson that energy out-is energy back. Do not taint your ascending consciousness with the anger of being a victim.

 

We, your Galactic Family, wish to commend you for finding and following the multidimensional light in the midst of one of the darkest times in Gaia's history. We also remind you that you have chosen to be born during this time of great challenge. Many of you were the volunteers from our ranks that came to assist Gaia at the fall of Atlantis. Since then, you have lived many, many lives in preparation for this final act of third dimensional Earth. We do not need to punish the dark, for as their once conquered world (Earth) returns to Her true resonance, they will no longer be able to even perceive Her reality.

 

As we take them from their position of domination over others, they all have the opportunity to find the light and change the direction of their gaze. If they choose to see power over others rather than find the true power within unconditional love, they shall naturally adhere to a reality of a very low frequency. Fortunately, you, our beloved ascending ones, have raised your resonance, along with the resonance of Gaia, to the percentage of Light Quotient, which allows our intervention. Without the Illuminati's constant projection of domination and fear into your world, those who have, until now, been too downtrodden to awaken can more easily find their inner light.

 

In closing, we wish to tell you about how the Draconians were able to find the Light of Ascension. We tell you this story to relieve you from the burden of prejudice and to give you the hope that even those of the dark can look towards the light.

 

MESSAGE FROM FRANQUOIX THE DRACONIAN

 

My name is Franquoix. I am sorry to say that much of what you have heard about the Draconians is true. However, much like our human cousins, we are evolving more now at a greater and greater speed. Yes, we are directly related to humans. We came to Earth as one of the first starseeds that inhabited Earth many millions of years ago. We Draconians were among the first Galactic Beings to implant Earth with our DNA. Since then, Earth has had some form of reptilian creatures, which are actually less evolved forms of our being. We were the first to receive permission for this implantation of our DNA because your atmosphere at that time best fitted our species.

 

We chose to inhabit the forms of the dinosaurs in which we existed for many millennia. When the atmosphere changed, many of us died. Some of us went underground to live, and our Star Ships that came to rescue us took some back to our Homeworld in the Orion system. Our planets in the Orion System were undergoing an evolutionary process to which we could easily adapt. Unfortunately, those of us that were extremely large in size could not be taken aboard the ships and could also not find safety underground. Therefore, that portion of our species died off. From our experiment on Earth, we learned that it was too difficult to adapt to the many changes of evolution while living in such a huge body. The ones who survived were those who went underground to live.

 

Eventually, after Lemuria and then Atlantis fell, the vibration of the planet fell, as well. Some of the underground residents maintained the fourth dimensional vibration of their Lemurian and Atlantian friends who also took refuge underground. Others adapted to the evolutionary change of the third dimensional vibration by taking other, smaller bodies. It was those members that you still see now, for they became snakes, lizards, birds and other reptiles. Those known as humanity have much of our DNA. Also, their forms were, also, created with the elements inherent to this planet.

 

However, humanity does not just have our DNA. You are a collection of DNA from all your galactic ancestors merged together in your earth vessel, which was created by the elements and fourth dimensional Elementals of your planet. All of us, humans and reptilians, were, and are, members of the first consciousness that decided to experiment with physical manifestation upon the planet known in your day as Earth.

 

As I said before, the larger members of our species became extinct when the planet's atmosphere became hostile to them. Those of us that were rescued by the Star Ships banded together like immigrants to our own Homeworld. Those who had been carnivores on Earth found an easier adjustment to the militaristic Draconian Society. On the other hand, those who had become herbivores on Earth had a very difficult adjustment. We had not killed in millennia and did not fit into the society based on killing others in order to prosper, or even to survive. It was this second group which was my ancestors.  

 

Because we were not accustomed to hunting and killing, we had a hard time defending ourselves against the trained warriors of the Draconian society. These warriors felt embarrassed by us because we were different and went against their "way." Therefore, they threatened us at every turn and ridiculed us for not wanting to fight. They called us cowards. We were not cowards. In fact, we were very brave to stand up against their ridicule and not give up our essence merely because it was not the norm.

 

We didn't choose to avoid fighting because we were afraid. Instead, we chose our non-violent ways because we did not want to kill. We had witnessed that many of the warrior's battles did indeed end in death for one of them and sometimes for both of them. We knew from those of us that had killed, that killing changed our essence. It would not change it so much that we were like the warriors, but it would change us enough that we would no longer fit into either group. Those who had killed usually died soon from loneliness, or they became even more ferocious killers than the warriors because they had no honor to give them dignity.

 

Therefore, those of us who would not fight hid in caves and worked on developing our spirit and our minds. Our hearts were not to be opened for many millennia. Therefore, our spiritual life was very mental. However, it offered us the rules of conduct that gave us honor, just as obedience to certain rules offered honor to the warriors. As we receded deeper and deeper into the caves, our scales began to change colors and become softer. The warriors had dark green, or dark brown scales, which were very thick and tough, like armor.

 

Our scales were never that dark or tough even before we moved into our desert caves. Then, as we continued to live in dark caves, our scales became more delicate and gained a luminescence to assist us in navigating the dark caves. Furthermore, as we became more spiritual we gradually began to emanate light from within our bodies, as well. This inner light allowed us to go even deeper into the caves, all the way to the deepest caverns and underground waterways. Once we discovered these waterways, we were able to travel great distances with much less effort. Since there was little material in the cave that could float, we became excellent swimmers. Over a few generations, we developed fins such as the ones I have now and gills like fish so that we could breathe underwater for more extended periods of time.

 

Our tails became longer and stronger than the warrior's tails, and we developed our crowns, which eventually ran from the top of our head all the way down to the tip of our tail. These crowns helped us to navigate our huge bodies underwater. As we became more spiritual, our long crowns also emanated light. Eventually the crown at the middle of our back evolved into wings so that now we could better swim, as well as fly. With these added talents of flying and swimming, we were able to fly through the immense underground caves and make more short journeys onto the land. We usually did so at night because we had developed excellent night vision in the caves, which afforded us greater protection against the warriors. However, we were still far too vulnerable to be able to be a part of the Draconian society.

 

As we became more spiritual, we became more powerful. Then, we did not like hiding in caves, even though we had definitely made the most of the experience. This is when we attracted the attention of the Arcturians. The Arcturians recognized our huge evolutionary shift, but also saw that we had not yet learned much about love. On the other hand, because of our isolation from the others, we had learned a great deal about unity and protectiveness for our group. The Arcturians saw these traits as a precursor to the development of the ability to feel love.

 

Love had never been a component of the Draconian Civilization. Hence, only intervention from another civilization could introduce this new concept. Since the Arcturians had already developed their Lightbody, they could meet up deep in our caves or high in our night skies. In fact, this is how their contact began. They began their contact by whishing past us in their Lightbodies, either in the caves or the night sky and leaving a trail of unconditional love behind them. At first we could only experience this love as a pleasing aroma. Indeed, it was so pleasing that we began to follow these wispy rays of light to learn more about them.

 

Over time, we began to look forward to their appearance, and even anticipated their arrival. Until that time, our spirituality was a mental concept of changing, interacting with and even creating reality. We had grown very much from our lessons and had gained such mind control that we could communicate telepathically and clearly read the minds of the warriors and their prey. We also learned that we could control the thinking of the warriors to distract them from their prey, as well as to warn the prey that they were in danger. Furthermore, the Warriors had no idea what was happening to them, as we had learned to shield ourselves from their perception of what we were doing, as well as who we were.

 

Unfortunately, this power was beginning to cause problems, as power without the regulation of wisdom or love can be very destructive. We slowly were beginning to realize this, but we had no concept of love to serve as a balancing agent to power. If the Arcturians had not arrived we may have become as vicious as the warriors, or maybe worse. When the Arcturians could feel that we were coming to this realization, they moved into the next level of their teachings.

 

Up until now there had been no communication, except via the essence that they later identified as unconditional love. The next thing that happened was that we didn't see them for what appeared to be a very long time. We finally decided to band together and send out our unified mental intention of asking them to return. It was a resounding success. Almost immediately they appeared in our deepest cave wearing their forms of Lightbody. We were so happy to see them, that we actually had a brief experience of feeling love. They commended us so deeply that the feeling of love returned.

 

Our power grew exponentially when we incorporated the feeling of love into our essence. We could no longer stay on that world without totally disrupting the warrior's power or threatening our newfound experience of love. Consequently, the Arcturians took us into their Star Ships. Many different members of the Milky Way Galaxy serve on Arcturian Ships. Therefore, even though we were different, we were completely accepted and, yes, even loved.

 

 

CLOSING MESSAGE FROM ARTURIANS

 

Dear Ascending Ones,


We want you to know that forgiveness is the core of unconditional love. As many truths are revealed, many will become frightened and angry. Dear Ascending Ones, we remind you that unconditional love is the healing force that must be administered to the anger, fear and confusion that will arise during this period of ever-increasing change. First remember to love yourself unconditionally. In this way, you can better remember to unconditionally love those who have maligned you for myriad incarnation.

 

The great avatars who have ascended beyond your dimension used the force of unconditional and total forgiveness burst forth into Lightbody. It is the greatest challenge of ascension to NOT allow the Truth to lower your consciousness. A Truth that has been hidden for ages is one that will have great power once revealed, but it can also create disharmony in those who feel they have been lied to for so very long. Therefore, we remind you to embrace the Truth with complete gratitude and the knowledge that the time of Planetary Ascension is nigh!

 

Within the moment of that knowing, think first of Gaia, and send Her the harmony of your unconditional love to assist Her with her transmutation. Each of you are experiencing the many lies that you have told yourself so that you could survive in a hostile world until this time. Look now into those lies, such as, " I'm not good enough." or "I don't think I can be of assistance." Then there is the worst lie of all that, "I am not powerful enough to make a difference."

 

You are ALL beautiful multidimensional beings with wisdom, power and love beyond your wildest imagination. You have gained more than your third dimensional thinking can realize, but as you fully download and integrate your multidimensional thinking, you will Know that which was formerly unknown. The stage is set, the lights are on, the orchestra ready and the curtain is opening.

 

Get ready for you are HERE NOW!

 

 

www.multidimensions.com

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The following is a comment made to the "A Modest Rebuttal" blog made by a recently departed moderator at poleshift ning, Cindi C, also known as Kai, or Cindi or Cin. It is worthwhile to read, so I made it a blog. I applaud you Cindi for coming forward with your story. I think better of you now. May you too be at peace.

 

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Comment by Blinders Off 3 hours ago

 

She's [Nancy] a fraud. While I have no longer have access to tangible proof that she has lost it like you all do, at least not since I quit that ning, what I have are the tests that were presented to her that she latched on to like a snapping turtle. She said that the "zetas" said things that could not possibly be true - because what the "zetas" said were someone / something else, were actually done / said by me posing as someone else. I have so much to tell you all I really don't know where to begin.

My suspicion that she was other than she let on began with her going nuts on the admin ning against the mods. Prior to that, I was an absolute believer. Starting with that moment... the one where you read about the 'trials' dialog where you can picture a spitting, huffing, red faced Nancy Leider, I decided to "test the spirits" I think is the way the Bible puts it. And without letting ANYONE know what I was doing, which may have made me a few enemies in the process. So at the cost of truth and absolute honesty, what I have painfully discovered in an indirect way was the same as what the 4 mods discovered in an abrupt and direct way just with different methods behind it. I felt they were owed that.

Let me back up a bit first. I never asked to be a moderator. I joined that ning expecting to learn a lot about the Zetas and the Earth changes and it so happened that a member joined that I knew from a previous list (two, actually) who was only up to no good. He was into recruiting for his "cult" and is wanted in the disappearances of 3 people as well as himself - but it's an unnessary and long story at this stage. I warned Gerard about him and was doing some research in the USA to try and help locate the missing adults and child - and for that reason alone was deemed worthy to be a moderator. Silly. I knew very little about Planet X and was certainly no expert in any area of survival. Maybe some of you might remember my warning to the female members of the list? It was part him and part some people who joined saying their goal was to 'meet women'. I need to apologize to a few of the male members who tried to defend their species, but I was playing the Nancy game and couldn't give myself away. I'm NOT that vapid, critical person in reality. It took a lot out of me to play the charade and there were some very sad times when it was all I could do to stop myself from writing to a few of you to tell you what was going on. But I had no proof, just suspicions and couldn't risk Nancy finding out yet. It was particularly hard not to tell Cheryl, but I knew she and Gerard were still close, and if she had told him, the gig would be up.

I want to humbly apologize to all those that were summarily and rudely dispatched by the mods for no "good" reason. There were many a time it felt so wrong and unjust, but to continue my subversive search for the truth it was necessary to fit in and blend well. I ousted as few as possible to keep the game going. For what it's worth, I think the idea of a quorum decision about a suspension was a good one. That way, if someone has a doubt, it can be aired and the person in question gets a second chance if agreed upon. With a large group you HAVE to have some type of agreement process. I was also a paralegal, so I understand where Cheryl is coming from with much of what she says. Most of the suspensions were baseless and she was out to squash the debunkers before they caused trouble. Everyone with a mind of their own is considered a debunker.

Nancy is cut throat. If anyone even comes close to disputing her or the "zeta" message, she suspends or encourages other mods to do it and when a new mod suspends for the first time, she calls it "first blood". Where is the love in that? Where is the Service to Others? It's cruel and unfair to punish people for asking a genuine question or for having a doubt or concerns. I can understand the spammers being suspended without question, there was a good bit of that, and of marketers wanting to tout their products, too.


Gerard is her minion. He sides with anybody that has an opinion. I wonder if he actually has any thoughts of his own sometimes. I think he genuinely likes Cheryl (who Nancy insists is having a mental affair with Gerard and thinks (cheryl) they have several hybrid children together and a love nest in the zeta community). Gerard will do whatever Nancy encourages him to do and that way she can say "It's Gerards ning, he hires, fires, etc.) SHE runs the ning by planting manipulative ideas into her "subjects" and therefore keeps her hands clean and keeps denyability on her side. But in re-reading Cheryl's blog, you can see that Gerard also agrees with Cheryl all the time as well.

I'm a long time student of Coersion and so-called ninja mind games because I don't like people that are manipulative for personal gain (i.e. pushy salesmen, etc) so I usually beat them at their own game by KNOWING their game. She's a near master at it. But she's getting old and her mind is slipping and she's showing her hand far too often. But then I'm older, studied, and know what to look for. Not a young, impressionable person she can play mind games with. Since she says she doesn't take money for what she does, I can only assume the payoff for her is simply Power. She continuously said that Cheryl is jealous of Nancy's international fame and celebrity and that Cheryl wanted to run Gerards ning herself and was after the POWER. Seems like she was holding a mirror up to herself and calling it Cheryl or something.

So... I summarily quit both nings the other day with the excuse that it had become "the Cheryl show". Honestly, I just couldn't take it a moment longer. Here's what was going on. The order may not be quite right and I'm a little scattered with timing, but the facts are true. I have absolutely nothing to lose in telling this and seriously debated whether or not to do it. However, I think that the way Nancy treated Cheryl was voraciously uncalled for and the right thing to do is come out with this. Originally it was for my own personal edification and to grant me some clarity of mind so I had no intention of telling anybody what I found out. I'm not generally into drama, so I'm a bit out of my league here. This whole thing has gone beyond drama into meladrama and the truth on BOTH sides needs to be known.


Up to the end of Cheryl's post, she had most everything extremely accurate. I also saved all the emails - except there were quite a few I wasn't included in because they didn't trust me, but I believe they were also accurate. Although in the spirit of honesty here, she didn't mention desertrose and Karen's threats of blackmail if they weren't allowed back in. Nancy had a field day with that one, ohmygod. Had I been them, screw the threats and just DO it. This would have been over much sooner. I kept thinking to myself, "You go ahead, Nancy... I know that they have copies of those emails... keep on... you'll see...) I'm SO glad they finally saw the light of day.

Anyway, Nancy has become fixated on Cheryl to the exclusion of moderating anything for the most part. There are incessant "zeta" comments that are so blatently obviously Nancy's own deluded thoughts it is ridiculous. Even to the using SOZT prior to the comment. She has a few undercover accounts here that she uses to infiltrate with and her and Gerard BOTH copy and paste insane amounts of spy posts to the admin ning. To Gerards credit, he did post Cheryl's Blog and included not only the word document - but for our reading pleasure, also made it into a pdf file just in case we couldn't see the .doc file. I was truly impressed that he could be so passive aggressive.

I had made an account here using the name Peter Martinez. Didn't use it but a couple of times myself, but apparently Nancy did. One day about the time I was getting really sick of playing the charade and was ready to call it a day, I personally deleted the Peter account without telling anybody. Nancy soon reported back that Cheryl was on to us and suspended Peter. Can't remember if it was a "zeta"report or not, honestly, but I'm thinking it was.

As an aside, I changed my name several times. It was damn hard to be me and I just wanted to wash it off from time to time and be another me. So apologies too, if that was annoying to some of you.

However, at some point weeks ago, I also made a GLP account named Harry Heiny NOT because of Hairy Derrier, but because it was a mans name and I just couldn't think of anything else at the time. I posted a debunker type thing on there to see if it would find it's way back to her and what she would say about it. Lo and behold, the "zetas" decreed that Hairy Derrier (I may have misspelled it) and Harry Heiny were one in the same and that he was a -gasp- triple agent for GLP, Earth Changes and Pole Shift. UNbelieveable. She latched on to that for a while and I never said that it was me. Can't imagine what she would have said about that little piece of information had I fessed up. But then she would have made something up, I'm sure. It was then that I was starting to see daylight and knew my days there were numbered. I took a break from the ning when I started harvesting and canning my garden, but at the same time, it was a chance for some soul searching and decision making.

She swears that once Cheryl's ning reaches 100 people, that it will implode because of all the service to self people in there that do a lot of in-fighting and have such strong personalities that Cheryl won't be able to control it. All of the "troubIemakers" left Poleshift and went to Earth Changes. PS had been really peaceful for a while, too, and I have to say... a bit boring. I really think that all she's waiting for is the chance to say "I told you so".

Nancy, by way of the "zetas" is saying that Cheryl is having a nervous breakdown, pacing and acting strangely and that her husband is about to have her committed. I think maybe it's Nancy that's about to have that breakdown and she's trying to mirror that on to Cheryl. Cheryl, only you know the truth of that statement. But from the sound of your Defense blog, you seem perfectly sane to me.

They have 11 moderators now. Most of them are in "stealth" mode and several were recipients of all the private messages that were going around. Those messages made it to the moderator ning and were dissected as well. 12 before I quit. Except that it's really 10. Ken is gone. He moved away to his safe place and has no internet. There were a string of people brought in that I didn't know, but seem to be really nice, really decent people. At least one was from the old TT days, I think. I like them all. But I doubt they realize what they're dealing with. Maybe they have, because most of them went quiet when "the Cheryl Show" came on so loudly.

I know that this will get back to her, because someone will post it on the admin ning. I don't care at this point. I'm so disillusioned it's just beyond anything I ever expected to run into there. I'm NOT a debunker, and that makes it even worse. I saw her true self and it isn't pretty. All I was looking for were some answers to the earth changes and was genuinely thrilled to be able to talk personally with Nancy. �I was AS shocked at her tirade against the moderators as they themselves were. We were literally all dumbfounded. If we had been people in a group, we would have all been looking around at each other, blinking, with our mouths hanging open saying, "what just happened here?" It was truly disturbing...


And in the spirit of honesty, I have to say that I now have major MAJOR doubts about the zetas in general. I've been reading a lot about what others have to say about them and none of it is positive. Nancy is the ONLY source that I found that spins the zetas in a positive light. She may well be one of them that has shapeshifted for all I know. I think if they do exist, that they show their contactees a fake side of themselves. Their agenda is questionable. They want to ELIMINATE the human race and replace it with hybrids that have no soul and no real emotions. A race of potential psychopaths is all this planet needs. Humans don't need eliminating, they need education and experience. Who died and made them GOD that they can determine the fate of an entire species? As my momma used to say, "I brought you into this world, I can by God take you back OUT of this world" (usually she was mad at me for something). But my point is, they aren't our creators and they have NO right to do what they are doing.

And on top of all that I found in my researching the zetas, I found Nancy Leider to be a fraudulent, manipulative, angry and delusional old woman. The zetas would use HER as their emissary? Speaks volumes, doesn't it? And from what I've researched about HER, unbeknownst to me, she's pretty much always been this nasty person. I've read transcripts from the old TT days. Do the research for yourself and decide for yourself. These are just my own researched opinions and truly aren't good for anybody but me.

I've also researched the Sun. The thing that Nancy is most vehement about denying will have anything to do with the earth changes. The earth changes will happen, but how they will happen are still and always will be up for debate. All the so-called pictures I've seen of PX pretty much seem to be lense flare. I even took a few myself that were SO real looking, but were only lense flare. We want it to be there so badly we will fool ourselves into thinking a speck of dust is a planet. Prepare for it, but wait for the real thing. Don't believe Nancy Leider just because she "says" so... please. We mock the sheeple here, but we have become sheeple in our own right, and Nancy was the Shepherd. Leidering us all over a cliff?

The best thing Gerard can do for himself is to distance himself from Nancy and loosen her grip on him. I think a suspension might be in order as that would be the ultimate justice for the Red Queen.

But... I apologize for intruding into this list, as Gerard told us that Nancy and I, in particular, were not welcome here. That means my charade worked, and I understand how Cheryl and the others feel. I will go away on my own soon after posting this unless the mods suspend me before I can do it myself. If so, you dont' have to worry about me coming back as someone else. I do hope if no one else gets to read it that Karen, Rose, Shadow and Cheryl at least do.

Shadow, from the moment you asked me if I had "blown this joint" that's pretty much when I made the decision to get to the bottom of things. Just so you know. I almost did leave, and it was hard - HARD - for me to tell them I was wrong to jump ship and wanted to stay. By then though, the die was cast and it was "find out the truth come hell or high water".

So I did. Make of it what you will, and please forgive me for appearing to be a critical and vengeful bitch. Someone that Nancy could feel a kinship with. Ouch. I need a green and blue shower now to wash away the ick.

Cheryl, be at peace. Just my opinion but for what it's worth, I think you did the right thing.

Oh, one more thing... I really did like Ken. He was who he was and that's just who he was. The Cowboy handle suited him. He jumped in the fray and started shooting from the hip. Sometimes he hit high, sometimes low, but he was just being himself. A lot of what he said made a lot of sense, it's just his delivery was kind of crooked. And for the record, Karen never did produce the emails where Ken said the F word to her so much. She got pretty bent at me about that, but the air was full of argument and it was easy to get swept up in it. I figured since everybody was producing evidence against Ken, then Karen (being the one who started it all) should have at least coughed up her own evidence.

 

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My responses to some of Cindi's comments:

 

"Nancy, by way of the "zetas" is saying that Cheryl is having a nervous breakdown, pacing and acting strangely and that her husband is about to have her committed."

Nope, more fiction.

 

 

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"...Cheryl (who Nancy insists is having a mental affair with Gerard and thinks (cheryl) they have several hybrid children together and a love nest in the zeta community)."

 

Hey! The first positive thing I've heard her say! ;D

(Both Gerard and I did talk about the hybrid children on the True Confessions blog.)

 

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"Gerard is her minion. He sides with anybody that has an opinion. I wonder if he actually has any thoughts of his own sometimes."

He does. He's just careful with whom he shares them.

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"But in re-reading Cheryl's blog, you can see that Gerard also agrees with Cheryl all the time as well."

He doesn't agree with me all the time.

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"Although in the spirit of honesty here, she didn't mention desertrose and Karen's threats of blackmail if they weren't allowed back in."

It wasn't something I was involved in. I was basically focusing on her allegations toward me. I did read something about it when I was going through the scans. Nancy/Gerard called DR's bluff and that was the end of it as far as I know.

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About the Zetas, that could be the STS Zetas. My experience has never been bad with the group I know. Further, there is ZT that says the hybrids have been developed to house human souls when the PS happens, and that they are a blend of the best of both races. Can we trust ZT? I, like you, don't know anymore what's ZT and what's NancyTalk. What I do know is I saw fake ZT on Brian, the mod, while I was still there, and recently I've seen some fake ZT on me. However, LOL, none of it came true. Final volley? I hadn't even started! If those mods can't see the falsity in that ZT then maybe they deserve Nancy.

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"The best thing Gerard can do for himself is to distance himself from Nancy and loosen her grip on him. I think a suspension might be in order as that would be the ultimate justice for the Red Queen."

I absolutely agree with this. Her presence on his ning neuters its effectiveness, as well as the moderators who are probably just chasing their tails to "get Cheryl."

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